I went to the doctor today.
He says I have a throat infection,
yet it could be mono. he said it's definately just a throat infection, and Christi said I don't need my tonsels out. YAY!
Not good. He put me on a shitload of antibiotics.
3 times a day.
The last couple of days have been rough.
Thoroughly possible to explain.
On top of it all, my own boyfriend doesn't want to stay around and hang out with me.
He'd rather go to see a film with his friends.
I know you had this planned, but your girlfriend is an emotional and physical wreck, and all you can do is say "When you feel better to talk about it, please talk to me".
Will came home yesterday.
He called me last night when I was at a movie with Jamie, and I forgot to call him back.
I'll do so at some other point in time.
I tried giving Brian a call, but he didn't answer.
Something I'm absolutely use to, that I don't even bother letting it go to the voicemail anymore.
He did text message me asking if I called, in a very subtle "I don't care, but did you?" kind of way.
I texted him back that I did, but it wasn't important, and that was it.
I'm quite proud how I don't let him get to me anymore.
I vote, yes.
Quit smoking, completely.
Due to my mother seeing and lecturing me for an hour and a half.
Health comes before anything.
My bloody Ipod broke again. For God sakes.
It takes 20 minutes to restore it and put all the music back on
but then it works for 10 minutes and then it dies and says I need to restore it again.
I need rest.
I should get down to that.
G o o d M o r n i n g H e a r t a c h e , Y o u ' r e L i k e An O l d F r i e n d . C o m e A n d S e e M e Ag a i n .
EDIT: Brian called me today.
We talked for like 2.5 hours, surprisingly.
I find comfort and reassurance in his voice, regardless of what he's saying.
Call it alleviating if you want, but it's the truth.
I think we've re-created a friendship, if anything.
I'm pretty sure that's as deep as it'll go.
I know his trust level towards me is far in the negatives, and I know that I wouldn't be able to bare losing him again.
So as of now, I feel as though my full heart just entered my life all over again.
Let's just hope it stays that way.